SPR 20 - SPIRIT
ROCK AND A HARD PLACE
between a rock and the world.
There’s no harder place than this earth,
with this mind.
It’s not easy to think beyond the place you call home
and be forced to live on it.
I live by seconds
because this morning it was only a matter of them when
I was so close to forgiving (or at least I think I was)
so close to god
so close to myself
so close to grace
so close to sleep
so close to the end of the song.
the seconds changed
and change can be felt
so I felt the seconds.
But now I’m close to the ground
close to praying
close to family
to reaching out to him,
If I had a ten track mind,
perhaps I would be stuck between two rocks,
or a dilemma,
I am stuck between this mind and the earth and time.
IN THE ABSENCE OF
What will I do in the absence of insignificance?
find God better
find myself better
If this becomes habit, will I be a better person- probably,
lose something- gain something.
maybe more of this,
maybe I’ll hear the voice of an angel, maybe.
Maybe I’ll find the answer to the reason,
maybe I’ll just sleep, but at least I won’t be wasting time.
What can I gain from meaningless things,
but what can I lose?
Which means no God,
none of this
So I’ll just take a meaningful risk and remove myself
speaker of the house
where is your home
who speaks from your house
whose voice is the voice of reason
and for what reason
do you listen.
when you intuit only half healed and are wholly human,
on this strength
where is it that you say you are going and
on whose voice are you moving forward and mountains.
this is why sight could only initiate
but never deliver truth,
because the lonely man looks a lot like the man alone
and I’ve known the voice of both
how can two walk together unless they’ve agreed.
so I agree—
that my voice is as long
as I am perfect
with the voice from home
that I will be home everywhere.
is the conclusion of this agreement.